"You cannot buy Happiness with Money..."
.....yes we all know that, but, how we seldom "understand" it. I have been brooding over this for over a decade now. It is this "society", the "materialistically driven, economically and politically motivated egoistic and power hungry methodologies" carefully and slyly enforced among us. No, no...I am not angry or frustrated.... unfortunately, I am infected too, by this disease, just like many of you! Can I get out of this rut? Not in this lifetime. Call me a hypocrite? Go for it! But, atleast I can recognize and admit to myself. I am starting to believe that there are many of you who think like me..(otherwise you wouldn't be reading this far into this article!). Well, I have seen life in the so called "land of opportunities" - USA. Now I have moved to Australia. I don't mean to compare the lifestyles between these 2 countries. (Perhaps, one day life will take a full circle, back to my birth country, India!??) But, the difference is that I have someone who cares for me (and vice versa) nearby now. Life is a little more meanigful now....Compromises taken?...well, of course! But, it is well worth it. However, am I "Happy"? Hmm...no...and I think I will NEVER be! The reason? I lost my mother....I had never imagined my life "without" her. She was one big reason for relocating here. She still smiles at me every morning I look at her.... "picture". I know she is with me ALWAYS! But, life is just not the same. This VOID...it will NEVER be filled. The only consolation? Life will end one day for me, too! I will be with her...inseperable then! Meanwhile, I know, for sure, that she will come into my life in one form or the other. I will let you know when this happens. Well, atleast, that is one string of hope for me.

Wondering if there is any co-relation with this incident and "money"....YES. I have missed out on all that time that I could have spent with my mother, instead, in trying to find a niche in a far away country..deprived of my family....the ones who I care for and who are most dear to me. Money was not what I was after. I knew it all the way, but, I was incapable to fighting the "rules of this society". I realise that now and I will never dither to follow my heart in the future, but, sadly it is too late to bring my "happiness" back into my life. Life teaches us lessons....but, does not provide us with an erasor to correct our mistakes. We get only one chance. So, for those who are lucky enough to have a loving mother or any family or friends living far away....hope you have learnt from my own experience. Don't waste much time trying to "make ends" meet. The "end" will always be that much away from your reach! And the past time will never return...NEVER!